[I called out:]
“Everything in a moment
Feels everlasting;
The only thing that lasts
Is that it's passing.”
Every act in its own flesh
Feels original:
For you, it is, but you
Are a sailing gull
On a mountain updraft
That will always be
Coming past, coming past
Off a cooling sea.
And your feathers will catch
As they are meant to
(First downy, wrapped-in, wet, where
An egg invents you).
Your wings will throw down as your
Chest is muscled to
(Spasming in the nest for winds
Just to tussle through).
And your mind – so secret, yours –
Feels desires pull
After fish, after warm nights,
(Both older than gulls)
While I – a man on a cliff –
Try to find myself,
To own myself, to be my
mind on a rock shelf.
But I share my hungers with
The light trail of feet
In the dust on this peak, these
Eyes as I retreat,
This line for drafted water
(In pipes buried by
Some thirsty man, thirsting so
Derivatively).
Right? I was thinking last night while I brushed my teeth that there is a contenting fulfillment in doing things for one's self – both things that A) no one around you is doing, and B) that you came up with on your own, but then discovered many other people also doing. A) is comforting because it makes you feel useful – like you are filling a space in your world. And B) makes you feel in common – like you are a part of the right world, where people act like people do, yourself included.
ReplyDeleteSo original is a red herring (leave it for the gulls – they like fish): do things right and well in your time and placement, improving and adjusting every move to fit the day that comes (never the same, but always similar). Because that's how you know you're home: it's chaos, but always familiar chaos. And there's a sort of joy in that.
* Oh! Just thought of this, but the poem fits one of my favorite-to-cite William Blake quotes:
“Mans desires are limited by his perceptions. none can desire what he has not perceiv'd.”
So there's how unoriginal I am.
**Thanks to Alyssa (girl who points at butterfly), NBC photos-of-the-week (gull who ate the butterfly), William Blake (the swan – that's the aforementioned quote, backwards {as he would have drawn it on the copper plate}), and the space shuttle Endeavor (piggy-backing a lower-flying plane, as we all do in our highest endeavors) for making this collage full.