Thursday, October 18, 2012

Desire ...




       [I called out:]
Everything in a moment
Feels everlasting;
The only thing that lasts
Is that it's passing.”

Every act in its own flesh
Feels original:
For you, it is, but you
Are a sailing gull

 On a mountain updraft
   That will always be
     Coming past, coming past
       Off a cooling sea.

       And your feathers will catch
       As they are meant to
       (First downy, wrapped-in, wet, where
       An egg invents you).

       Your wings will throw down as your
         Chest is muscled to
           (Spasming in the nest for winds
             Just to tussle through).

             And your mind – so secret, yours –
             Feels desires pull
             After fish, after warm nights,
             (Both older than gulls)

             While I – a man on a cliff –
           Try to find myself,
         To own myself, to be my
       mind on a rock shelf.

       But I share my hungers with
       The light trail of feet
       In the dust on this peak, these
       Eyes as I retreat,

       This line for drafted water
     (In pipes buried by
   Some thirsty man, thirsting so
Derivatively).

1 comment:

  1. Right? I was thinking last night while I brushed my teeth that there is a contenting fulfillment in doing things for one's self – both things that A) no one around you is doing, and B) that you came up with on your own, but then discovered many other people also doing. A) is comforting because it makes you feel useful – like you are filling a space in your world. And B) makes you feel in common – like you are a part of the right world, where people act like people do, yourself included.

    So original is a red herring (leave it for the gulls – they like fish): do things right and well in your time and placement, improving and adjusting every move to fit the day that comes (never the same, but always similar). Because that's how you know you're home: it's chaos, but always familiar chaos. And there's a sort of joy in that.

    * Oh! Just thought of this, but the poem fits one of my favorite-to-cite William Blake quotes:
    “Mans desires are limited by his perceptions. none can desire what he has not perceiv'd.”
    So there's how unoriginal I am.

    **Thanks to Alyssa (girl who points at butterfly), NBC photos-of-the-week (gull who ate the butterfly), William Blake (the swan – that's the aforementioned quote, backwards {as he would have drawn it on the copper plate}), and the space shuttle Endeavor (piggy-backing a lower-flying plane, as we all do in our highest endeavors) for making this collage full.

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