Friday, September 11, 2026

Pieces of Poetica (2022 - 2024) ...

(I joined an “Erotic Poetry Reading Group” that gathered every month for two years and a few months. I'm not particularly inclined toward writing sexually explicit poetry, so this was an interesting edge to explore: what happens when a romantic demisexual writes for an audience of libidinal kinksters? … part silly, all visceral, zoomed away from the head and down into the organs. It was a delightful adventure) - 2026 Sept 8



But may I keep… what abstinent monks realize?
That a handshake tingles, That the world rolls in intercourse.
We are an open channel.

                     The rain kisses me lightly, mixing with salty clay
                     On an orange gray beach.

                     The music kisses me, tinny through car speakers
                     And crackling in/out through forest roads.

                     The cup kisses me, spilling just a glaze, sweet and warm
                     From a well hot and deep—

                     The ghost of pale fingertips on my passport,
                     The scratch of metal into a dark tree,
                     The slow splash of lakewater over partly dissolved bricks;

                     From behind plastic glass,
                     across unknown time,
                     over a thin bannister;

                     Kiss me, kiss me, kiss me…

“Welcome. Checking in?”
“Yes, Katie. I reserved a half hour ago. A queen bed.”
“Oh, yes—your reserved the Jacuzzi room.”
“Why do you say it like that?”
“Nothing, just—it’s the jacuzzi room. 127, here’s your key.”

“Holy shit, it’s half of the bedroom.”
“I need to get this plaster off my skin.”
“Do you want bubbles?”
“I think this one bottle is enough—“
“No, I want all the bubbles!”
“Oh wow.”
“Okay, I think you were right about the soap.”

                     Did you know, every hour, men produce 35-50 sperm?
                     Little aliens hiding behind a blood/testes barrier,
                     So immune cells won’t hunt them
                     And, after about 72 days,
                     If we don’t let them out, they’ll degrade and reabsorb.
                     But! A decreased risk of prostate cancer,
                     If we regularly release that horde.

                     So in my imaginary health class,
                     I look into my own young eyes,
                     And say “Cum a lot, with people you love.
                     A word from the old and wise.”

Becoming
  Elemental:
    Climb
      Onto
        Me
           Indecently, “
             Nice...
                Gamete-you.”

Thursday, September 10, 2026

Rich Folks (Con'scent) ...

(The way the rich guy was touching the cool girl's leg last night. Red flags) - 2024 March 19


You fingers look like they smell like money.
You touch her skin like an auction paddle.
I wonder if she feels the worms inside like me,
But just sits still. 
                                    God I hope she’s numb enough.

     Another line-item of equity.

Your questions wear the tone of commands:
“Why don’t you leave your car; I’ll drive you back.”
Everything beyond this small streetlight where
we say Goodnight looks black in my mind.

     Another acquisition in line.

Your stories set you laughing, like
An invitation for everyone to remember—
To tell a story at their own party
About how funny you always are.

     Another deposit in the bank.

Your Body ...

(December Theme: “Winter Wonderland”) - 13 Dec 2023


        “Your body is a wonderland.” - John Mayer

You didn’t floss, and I can tell.
That “pork trapped in a crevice for 5 hours” smell.
You flop onto my soft couch, body relaxing.
Queuing the release of SO MUCH stored gas, passing.

You’re cursing at your belly in rage
While the old blood drips between your legs.
But I actually enjoy that massacre more
Than when it thickens and crusts up a few weeks before.

Those pulpy chunks will be back in my mouth soon, I know.
A Dali-fashioned timepiece: eggs that come and go
Like tides on a beach made of shedding skin and sweat,
With a hyper-happy sunrise and a bloated sunset.

But I keep coming back to this beach, too.
For all the “Ouch! Hot! Ooh! Cold!” whining that I do,
For all the oil in these waters and the fishbones in this sand,
I will swim beyond my breath,
    Will play until I chafe my flesh,
       Toes in the skim until there’s no light left:

Your body is a wonderland.

Outcomes ...

(Theme: Abundance & Excess. Written while sitting next to my nephew, in an old beach house in Bawley Point, Australia) - 15 November 2023


They made a child.
And it made sense to me:
The way he kisses even her
cheek, publicly—

The oil from her    pores
Saps down her neck   and
Slaps his face with a vapor
That makes his
Tongue, eyes, thighs,
ears, pits and back
                         salivate;

The way she looked at him, 
even.          in frustrated fits, with
               A monk's steady adoration;
       A lioness’s ball-nipping hunger
“Lord, give me more of your gift”

I imagine them,
Just one private corner-turn
                  Out of this crowd,
                          Eating each others’ faces,
                                          Suffocating out loud;

Digging and digging
                          “Take my skin off! Where are you?”
                                                     Deeper and deeper,
                       Like fungus under wet soil—through!

And how does that not make a child?
                           Knock the universe, compelling
                                   sweat and flesh and cum
                        Into a little something extra?
With its own mouth and eyes and bum,

And pure love,
And screaming cries,
And lost overwhelm,
And gaping-face
tingle-gasping
awe.

This child was no surprise to me,
From the parents I saw.


***

They also made a child.
And I was confused at how
the universe found                         any bounty or fullness
Inside of that                       passive row—

Peace with her                 was                                         a pastry crust.
Glazed with sweet,      but—             any pressure, it’s dust.
And what he sees in that,   I don’t know—
he’s a fan of                                                                  children’s cereal,
perhaps              she                               reminds him
of that last soggy
sweet sip,                  stubbornly sunk
in the bowl.

And yet,     she touches his leg,               and he stays—
Even chuckles to himself            through his beard,      peppered gray.

And they eat    desserts    together,
And   (though I itch being near it)    they’re content:
He shrugs off her moods          as “silly”
and smiles as she lights up
with a coffee
and a mint.

And          I cannot deny      their child,
Who looks in                 my eyes
and does not        look away,
Who studies rug textures            and laughs at      god-knows,
who flinches            at my
stubble                          but pets his
palm               there
anyway.

As she asks                “When did we feed him last?”
“Love, I don’t know,”     and on he reads.
Little fists     and a head     climbing onto his belly.
She scoops him up,       and he laughs, Complete:

                                        With pure love,
                          And screaming cries,
               And lost overwhelm,
And platter-eyed awe.

This child seemed like a miracle to me,
For the parents I saw.

At the Urinal ...

(This month’s theme: “The Other Monster” ~ since that one-eyed monster is so often the scapegoat) - 2023 October 9

“Morning, Walter.”
                                   Heyy! Ben. Weekend good?

“Pretty relaxed. Honestly 
been feeling a little down, lately. You?”
                                   I've been there—but yeah, oh man,
                                   This weekend was work!

“Yeah? Spill!”
                                   I must've spent sixteen hours going in-and-out, 
                                   but she was nice: muscular walls, soft puffy face, 
                                   narrow and a little rough inside—overall a comfortable fit.

“So you're sore, again?”
                                   Yesss. This guy,

                                   Keeps going back in—
                                   and I knooow he knows: 
                                        her stubble is grating me raw!
                                   I scream; he doesn’t care—

“They never care. I’m sore too!”
                                   Wh-what? But you—

“I knooow! Limp as a chicken skin… but he still insists
Lemme yank and stretch 
and ball you up until you blow—”

                                   Like that’ll fix—
“Like THAT’ll fix you being sad!
Just leave me alone, you stupid giant—”

                                   Stupid. Two-eyed. Giants—
“Oof-god! I can see that rash on your neck…”

                                   Yeahh, I think I got an ingrown hair, too…
                                   And just I heard him say So, you free tonight?

“The motherfuckerrr—”
                                   Yuuuup. I swear, 
                                   if I weren’t attached…

“If I were 3 feet long, I’d reach up and slap him for you. 
But would they even pay attention?”

                                   Nope.
“Nooo, sir—we're just little one-eyed servants, 
for you to abuuuse.”

                                   And then they'll blame us…
“Like it was our fuckin' idea…”

                                   Anyway—oup!—looks like we’re zippin’ up! 
                                   Love you, Ben!
“Love you, Walter! 
Happy Mond
                    drbl
                         rbl…”

Fish-Mouth Island ...

(That familiar premise: if you were left alone on an island, what would you pack?) - 2023 September 20

Day 227:
I am writing with the burnt husk of a coconut.
On an angled cliff face by my palm frond hut.
They told me I could pack 10 things, 
     but I made a mistake.

Day 228:
I am thrusting my groin into a ripe papaya fruit.
On a shaded bed of seagull down, in my birthday suit.
Did I really need the camp stove? Yeeees—no regrets. 
     I’m fine.

Day 229:
I cannot read pages 102-115 of my favorite book. I’m sick.
I see the pages part like thighs and I begin to lick.
The tang of damp ink and acid beckon, 
     dyslexically flirty…

Day 230:
I would sacrifice my sleeping bag for your body.
The rain tarp for your hair rustling across me.
Take my water jug and let me lick your sweat. 
     I’m done.

Day 231.

Helmet ...

(Theme: August rush/Impatience. This story is all true, events from Monday - Thursday) - 2023 August 24


My therapist tells me
That maybe I shouldn’t rush
Into the next relationship.
—Like he knows me so well.

My three closest friends
Also tell me that I need
To slow down, not get lost
Launching into the next—

          Feeling loved and irritated
          Distracts me from lunch,
          So I people-watch: wrrrrrRRR...  here comes
          A college kid on a battery-powered skateboard.

                  “So fast,” I think, chewing while
                    I admire his thick blonde hair flapping,
                    Body canted forward like a bowsprit,
                    Eyes squinting against the breeze.

                              He passes me. “___Ohhhh!! … SHIT.” I hear
                              A chorus of young college dudes behind me,
                              Then turn to see, along the street,
                                        A white shoe…
                                          A palm-sized remote…
                                             An orange-wheeled board 
                                                        slowly rolling to a standstill…
                              But he’s not on the board, 
                              nor the street, 
                                                     anymore.

                    He’s trying to walk, grabbing his head,
                    Falling at a dizzy flail into a locked bike instead,
                    Before succumbing to his limits
                    And sitting on the spinning cement.

She tells me I should delete dating apps.
          And what?    Go to a sports bar?    or line-dancing?—   No.
He says 
“You punish yourself with partners.”
        She pops in 
“You’ve too much empathy for people who hurt you.”

                    A homeless wizard kicks his skateboard toward the road curb.
                    A black ponytail brings over his jettisoned shoe.
                    The bike police come, and call the van police.
                    I walk over, too, after I finish lunch.

She doesn’t just say “You did this to yourself,” so I listen:
          “Go slow and easy,   before screwing your two worlds    together.”
My therapist makes it a prescription: 
          “When a boundary comes up,
             See how they respond—First—as a buffer 
                 between you being together and partnership.”

Like a helmet.

                    He’s still grabbing his head. 
          “That was a hard crash,” I say.
                              “I can’t really Hear you,” pointing to his right ear,
                                  “I hit my head hard. 
                                      They’re taking me to ER.”
          “Take care of yourself,” I wave; 
          he waves back, eyes squinting between his pain.

                    He’s not okay… brain-walls swelling 3 
weeks before school 
                    starts.

“I can’t hear you,” was also me to my friends, 
          3 weeks before that crashing 
                    heart.

She says I always go head-first, 
every love like an August rush.
So I’m tightening a thick-strap head-pad—
  since the ground 
     likes to kiss me 
                        so much.

Tuesday, September 8, 2026

The 12 Kinks of Xmas ...

2023 April 17 {video here.}



For the first kink of Christmas, my partner gave to me—
     A tickle with a feather! Tee-hee.

For the second kink of Christmas, my guru gave to me—
          Two tantricas teasing…

For the third kink of Christmas, my Domme gave to me—
               Three pinwheels poking…

For the fourth kink of Christmas, my cuckold gave to me…
                    Four faux-fur floggers!

For the fifth kink of Christmas, my to:::p gave to me…
                         A five-fingered fiiiiist!—Oh!

For the sixth kink of Christmas, my servant gave to me—
                              Six “Oops! I dropped it”s…

For the seventh kink of Christmas, my pe::t gave to me—
                                   Seven furries mating…

For the eighth kink of Christmas, my Daddy gave to me—
                                        Eight belts asphyxing…

For the ninth kink of Christmas, the boy-scouts gave to me—
                                             Nine ropes a-binding…

For the tenth kink of Christmas, my bottom gave to me—
                                                  Ten gaping golf balls…

For the eleventh kink of Christmas, my neighbors gave to me—
                                                       Eleven voyeurs viewing…

For the twelfth kink of Christmas, my true love gave to me—
                                                            Twelve hours of aftercare!
                                                           Eleven voyeurs viewing…
                                                         Ten gaping golf balls…
                                                       Nine ropes a-binding…
                                                   Eight belts asphyxing…
                                              Seven furries mating…
                                        Six “Oops! I dropped it”s…
                                  A five-fingered fiiiiist!—Oh!
                            Four faux-fur floggers!
                    Three pinwheels poking…
              Two tantricas teasing…
     And a 
  tickle with a 
 feather! 
     Tee-
            hee.