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| {Flashback: 2014} |
I would
never leave a
bed while you
were twitching.
I love when
you have to ask
if I came by to
kiss you last night.
I think I'll never
lose that sense I'm
just a ghost who got
lucky and, God slipped,
gave me a
body instead of a
sheet. I said, “Thank
you,” but only in my head;
in that dark alone space,
where it's safe to be
where it's safe to be
honest – outside, on my
lips, is just silence. And your
forehead.
The speaker of the poem feels blessed to have a woman like this by his side and feels he is not worthy enough for her. He accepts her for who she is and disregards all of her flaws, like her “twitching.” The second stanza shows the speaker’s dedication and care towards the woman because of the phrasing which sounds sarcastic. The second stanza is a daily reminder for the woman acknowledging that the speaker cares about him, following his action of kissing her every night. The sarcasm comes off for the speaker as if he wouldn’t kiss her every night. The speaker feels irrelevant and ghost-like when he is around the woman. He thinks that he was lucky enough for God to give him a body so he could live a life beside this woman. The speaker can be his “honest” self only in his head where he can express all of his feelings towards this woman; but the last stanza explains that the speaker knows he will always love the woman more than she can ever love him back.
ReplyDeleteAfter skimming the poem, you first see how lucky the speaker feels to be able to walk the earth and have this woman in his life. He thinks God made a mistake in making him a person as opposed to a spirit, someone who can actually live his life instead of being a bystander on earth, wandering alone. However, the speaker feels lonely anyway. He thanks God, but not out loud, because he is unsure if living is actually a blessing. He kisses the woman goodnight, but receives no affection in return. He says that outside his mind is only silence and her forehead. Not her lips. Not her eyes. Not a touch she is giving him. Only what he is giving to her. He has much to be thankful for, and much love to give, but he believes he is giving out more than he is getting back in this life.
ReplyDeleteGaw - you may one day make a wonderful clinical psychologist.
DeleteShe was wonderful. I hated having to leave ... but eventually I did have to (about a year after this). I still smile when I think about her, though