It's
sort
of
terrifying
to love life
like
I do.
I didn't used
to mind the
thought
of
letting
go.
A moment was so beautiful,
but was just another one:
enough, or one-too-many,
but never one-too-few.
I didn't care, meeting you,
whether you'd say 'yes' or 'no.'
Just asked because I needed
to keep asking—
to fill my moments up—
and hadn't failed with you yet.
But you liked me and, given
company, I didn't want to go:
I'd fall asleep in a laugh with
you; you, kissing me gapless,
would say, “you have to breathe,”
but I'd stay attached, anyway.
I'd imagine dying, again, as I do,
in a car crash or a stupid fight.
But as much as that used to make
me feel light, now I find it taxing.
I can't see growing tired of this; of
looking forward to moments I'll catch.
But if I do, I hope I'll be old and low
–
a waxy wick, flagging blue and slow,
remembering its
match.
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