Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Sort of terrifying ...

                 It's
             sort
           of
      terrifying
      to love life
                         like
                      I do.
      I didn't     used
         to mind   the
          thought
                 of
              letting
                 go.

A moment was so beautiful,
but was just another one:
enough, or one-too-many,
but never one-too-few.

I didn't care, meeting you,
whether you'd say 'yes' or 'no.'
Just asked because I needed
to keep asking—

to fill my moments up—
and hadn't failed with you yet.
But you liked me and, given
company, I didn't want to go:

I'd fall asleep in a laugh with
you; you, kissing me gapless,
would say, “you have to breathe,”
but I'd stay attached, anyway.

I'd imagine dying, again, as I do,
in a car crash or a stupid fight.
But as much as that used to make
me feel light, now I find it taxing.

I can't see growing tired of this; of
looking forward to moments I'll catch.
But if I do, I hope I'll be old and low –
a waxy wick, flagging blue and slow,
                                             remembering   its
                                                                             match.

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